Self Centered?

| Nov 6, 2017

And now for a little self-centered-ness, and I hope you don’t mind. Self reflection can be a good thing. How should I define myself? Should we even bother defining ourselves? Where are we on the TG continuum? Am I a TS, a TV, a female impersonator, a drag queen, gender fluid, or something else? For sure I am not an entertainer, and I don’t even know how to doll myself up enough to qualify as a drag queen. Essentially, my goal is to look like the genetic girls in the J. Jill or Talbot’s catalogs, so I keep myself as realistically feminine as possible. I go out as Kim very often and delight in being a woman, with all that it entails.  Much of the time I fall a little short of passability because I have not done enough permanent changes to my body and face to effortlessly look like a woman. Because I straddle the fence regarding gender, I probably don’t pass that well either as a woman or as a guy, in some ways. 

I know that for as long as I can remember (since about age three), I’ve wanted to be a female, and that desire is intense. Given that fact, I would say I’m a TS rather than a CD/TV.  (Is the term TV out of vogue and disrespectful? I’ve read that it can be taken that way, so maybe I won’t use it any more here.) I do know that in general, I am more of a daytime mall chick rather than a nighttime party girl and I’m like the Energizer Bunny with regard to exercise!

I am very grateful for the nice comments I receive on the three or so websites where I have a presence, and a compliment from anyone (t girls, genetic females, and guys too) is appreciated.  I don’t take compliments for granted and even the ones that sound a little shallow will elicit a smile from me (Hey babe, you look hot…). LOL. Well, I am glad you think so and thank you for sharing, I respond politely to them. Reciprocating kindness is a wise thing in my book.

Today I will close this brief missive with a couple of things that are listed on my urnotalone.com profile:  Thank you for reading my essay, and wherever you are, I hope your day is a happy and productive one.  ‘What I do today is important, because I am exchanging a day of my life for it.’

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Category: Body & Soul

KimberlyTS

About KimberlyTS: My name is Kim, and I'm a non-op transsexual. I love to correspond with others who have an interest in feminine beauty, gender illusion, and related subjects. My goal is to look like the genetic girls in the J. Jill or Sundance catalogs, so I keep myself as realistically feminine as possible. I go out as Kim very often and delight in being a woman, with all that it entails! My height is about 5-7 and I weigh about 145 lb. For as long as I can remember, I've wanted to be a female, and that desire is intense. Given that fact, I'm a TS rather than a CD/TV. In general, I am more of a daytime mall chick rather than a nighttime party girl. Other interests: I'm like the Energizer Bunny with regard to exercise!

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